12.20.09
i’m so selfish. one little stupid thing goes wrong in my life, and i whine. i complain, and i get upset.
that doesn’t happen a lot. i may whine about not wanting to do the dishes, but that’s different. i don’t actually give a shit about doing the dishes, i just like to be annoying, so i whine.
but when something goes wrong, like, ben getting a girlfriend and not telling me, i get all upset. for almost a whole day, i was really, really sad about that. and then i was like whoa.
taylor.
what. the. hell.
i kind of stepped back for a moment there and looked at my life. i realized i was putting stock in all the wrong things. it took me by suprise, really. i always thought i had everything in order, everything under control. but i don’t. not even close. and i don’t like it. not at all. i don’t like it when i’m not in control of a situation, or at least in a position where i feel like i could handle myself.
something needs to change.
Based on what has happened, what would you take control of?
